Life Of A Teenage Optimist

2009-09-03T05:39:00.000+08:00

Well, i don't really have anything much to say. Life's been simple, problem's always a bitch. But hey, that's pretty much life, isn't it. Basically i procrastinate about work. I don't really feel like working but even when mum doesn't show she wants me to work, i'd know she wanted it.

I guess i'm left with myself to support my family so here's where i make a stand. I don't expect you to get me a car even if i die dreaming of one nor set a fine dine meal for me. Like i said, here's where i make my stand. I'm going to work for family sake and of course supporting myself, probably others.

i wonder...who reads these.

Thoughts...

2009-08-18T22:46:00.000+08:00

After so long knowing, now i realize.
My feeling's towards you is different in my eyes.
A friend so great i'm scared to lose.
Because we all know life isn't much of a cruise.

A restless period while thinking of you.
Wishing for a moment that i know, couldn't be true.
Let me pray to my one and only God.
Keeping in mind that one confusing thought.

To risk our friendship is a daunting decision.
Yet i wait here, full with anticipation.
I don't want this to just fade away.
Instead reminiscing about me leaning on you yesterday.

A best-friend while my feelings for you grow.
I guess i'll just have to go slow.
"A girl Next Door" is what i think of her.
No matter what happens, just a friend or together, in my heart is where you'll stay forever.

Fcuk & Loaded

2009-08-13T23:22:00.002+08:00

Feeling shitty,
Feeling low.
What is this insanity,
isolation & dark like a crow.

Just like a dog, i have my own territory. A little mistake from anyone could just trigger a ticket to Hell-sinky. I'm pressurized by something yet i can't really say. Eff to this "something". This feelings aren't intended, it just come and goes like the sea.

I don't except anyone to understand me like i do because that is equivalent to being perfect. Someone who can just listen and take me as i am. Don't just come and go like many would, stay around and we'll share our different views or opinions. All i do is try to get my life out of my people because in the end back home is where isolation will soon kick in. Anyone out there willing to help? Insya-allah there will be...

These distorted images in my mind corrupts my day with a single flash. Trying to be happy is just another daily affair. It's like carrying a tonne of burden on your bare back.

Everyone has a life to enjoy, not to mention suffer.Maybe this is where i draw the line between my life and the outside world. I stop to think about my problems at the same time isolate myself so that i can prevent adding burden to others. It's been that way since my life was shattered since young. No matter who i talk to, fading away seems to be as easy as clapping.

sometimes i wish i feel like taking a day off from you guys. To create a residue that would make you think that i have issues. I admit, I do. But what am i to do when you've seen a broken home since young. It's like a stain that never comes off. Inevitably, life has it's way around. Honestly, it never did happen. Maybe i'm expecting too much. Or just plain paranoid.

If "perfect" is on the 99th floor of Hotel California, then i'm 5 blocks away, not even making it in the same building.

Shit happens,
it's part and parcel of life.
So where do i stand in this layer of adolescence?
Cause all that i'm going through, is another round of a jackknife.

midnight summer

2009-08-11T01:57:00.002+08:00

Composing became a new obsession
with the expense of time.
Oblivious about life's degradation,
that's where we create our own crime.

I can't sleep because i'm thinking about those songs i've composed. I'm not saying that i want everyone to love it but just appreciate. To me if the song is good enough for me, i'll take it as it is. Nothing's perfect. Hopefully others may get to listen to it soon

Just so you know, my band is called The Calderon's. Why so? Just ask this little girl called Fanaa Calderon. Recently i've come up with 3 new songs, one of which is pretty much ready for jamming. The last one i composed is mainly for my own ears as it tells a story of my journey in life waiting for my dear brother to come home. Nothing special to many but it is to me.

These past few day's i've been having this sudden stress that builds up in my head. That's when composing became apart of me. It just came about when the tides got a little too high.

I wish i have someone to talk to,
in times of drought.
Thinking about what's true,
yet never had the guts to voice out....it hurts,literally.

Long Time Since

2009-08-07T23:49:00.000+08:00

Moments remained as memories.
Time flew like the morning bird.
Be gone with these dark entities.
Soon, it will all turn to pure dirt.

Well it has been quite a while since my last entry. Things have been a bit unpleasant along the way but i guess i just got to build my foundation with a smile. I have to say, there are happy thoughts that got me to stay on my feet and not go astray to far out. Yeah maybe some of you guys are right. I do have my brothers and sisters when i need them. But bare in mind that i have the last say.

These past few days was a hell ride for me. Thinking about something only a handful know about. But i do try waking up in the morning with a smile on my face. Whether it last? That depends strictly on the things that happen.

Suddenly everything starts to slow down.
Yet sometimes i wished time would just stay still.
While i'm still in this town,
Let's hope we can enjoy the next thrill.

Tides

2009-06-01T00:53:00.002+08:00

Hello there.It's been awhile since i last updated.Been busy lately.Now's the period where everything goes slow.What do i mean? It's the hols but i've yet to plan anything due to the downfall of every single thing i did for the past month.

Eveything seems to be like it's falling apart.Honestly,a huge chunk just did.Picking up every single piece isn't hard but the healing process would take ages.I tried so much to do as everyone pleased.But the reality is that none would see what they want to see.I can't tell you whether i'm sick or in pain or even what i'm feeling.Someone please hear me out.

I had been sick these past 2weeks.Recently my wisdom tooth had been extracted.Still bleeding since yesterday.Trust me,it hurts like hell.

i tried so hard to be normal,
Yet you remain different.
Everyday,a new quarel,
Yet i'm still being presistant.

Urge

2009-02-02T03:16:00.004+08:00

Here i am,having another sleepless night.

Every situation for me seems so tight.

Trying to put a side these problems seems to be so daunting.

It would be easier if each situation stops changing.

Silence seems to be compelling.

I'm trying my very best to break free from this haunting.

Someone please tell me tomorrow will be okay.

Probably i'd change my mind to stay.

I hand everything in my hands to control.

Now it seems i have to take each of then down,toll by toll.

So now stop ignoring and start thinking.

'Cause each step is life-threatening.

To sleep is to wake,to wake is to think,to think is to worry,to worry is to be paranoid,to be paranoid is to make you react.thats where i am now.

Back Again

2009-02-02T00:38:00.003+08:00

Sorry people if i haven't been updating.

It's been a long while since i last started brain storming.

Life can be a bitch but there's light to every end.

So someone please receive me with open arms and give me your hand.

Holiday has finally started but restrictions came first.

Trying to unlock this chains to free myself and burst.

Thank my dear friends for delivering the best birthday surprise.

i must saw it was hard to hold those tears in my eyes.

It was the most simplest yet preeminent birthday ever.

It will abide in my heart for as long as forever.

Haiqal,Syafiq,Hurfee,Kawaii and my dear Fieeeee.

You all made my day so lovely.

Now my family life is changing through the next bend.

When will i probably get the upper-hand.

I sit here waiting and thinking for what comes after.

I'm wasting my teenage years just for the sake of my mother and father.

Till we meet again

.composed by fee.

2008-11-17T01:31:00.000+08:00

This song relates to how i feel this past week.The shit i'm in.ENJOY

2008-11-17T00:48:00.005+08:00

Everything builds inside,

and not once had time with you.

That leaves me no time to confide,

as another week just simply flew

Basically a week has gone by but i hardly make it through.One question constantly pops up in my head.Who else can i confide to? For once i felt lost in my own world and realizing that i had no one to 'talk' to.

I fought my way,

to have my time with you.

Not a single day,

did that came true.

You didn't realized how much i needed you,

nor did you realized how much i missed you.

I know you can't see me everyday

But it seems like everything is slipping away.

How could i possibly depend on my own,

when all my time is practically thrown.

No matter what i do,

i couldn't possibly get through.

now lock me up and say goodbye.

.composed by fee.

Where is everyone?

2008-10-15T15:28:00.002+08:00

Wasted time depending,

While i sit here waiting.

When family isn't there,

There's hardly any friends to spare.

When i needed someone around,

She's no where to be found.

Depending too much is a great lost,

I should have known it came at a cost.

So i'm here sitting,

Soon to start begging.

Needing her here badly,

But depending will make me go crazy

.Composed By Fee.

oh

2008-10-09T10:02:00.002+08:00

Maybe time isn't on my side,

It has never been.

So i'm judged by time which coincides,

Why's life be so mean.

it's been awhile since i last wrote "normally".Honestly, i prefer writing my thoughts in poems.It gets you thinking,i must say.Hari Raya has been relatively adequate for me.I don't feel the same as any other's.

Nevertheless,i enjoyed it pretty much,thank you.Enjoyed yesterday for sure.

2nd semester has been insipid for me.While some are in gear 3-4,i'm still stuck in gear 2.Been thinking a lot lately and it keeps perturbing me.If life was a little more interesting,i think it would make the most out of my thoughts.Now i'm alone in the library,thinking of what to do next.

Time is of the essence.But maybe i can't make anyone feel special.Can i?did i? Maybe i'm new and fresh out of the oven but what makes you think i can last? Maybe others may have been there longer than i would but that doesn't change the fact that i have an equal amount of chance

as any human living here today.

In her,i see stuff i would never thought i would find attractive in a girl.I'm sure God's helping me find who i really need as my partner.That's what makes her special.You all would think that i said that to every girl i fell for.Every girl is special in their own specially way.Based on my judgement,She's just the person i need to wake me up from my morbid downfall.

Never thought i could be so open with anyone.Well well.Believe me,what ever you're reading now is only the mere surface of what i'm feeling.

If time is you're guideline,don't let me be the one holding you back.

He reveal to her those three last words,

Despite her actions that are absurd.

But that's one out of many uniqueness he sees in her,

With his last breath he said "One day,baby.One day,we'll be together"

During those days he played a role,

a role as a best-friend which took its toll.

He fell for her ever so deeply,

Never has she ever felt so sorry.

A week before he passed away,

He whispered "i'll be with you even through the occurrence of judgement day"

He calls her all those sweet names,

But it would be too late for her cause his time had finally came.

she

2008-10-06T01:07:00.002+08:00

Finally she's back home but something's a trouble

I'll help you reach out from underneath those rubbles.

Some things are meant to just compromise

All this shit may come in certain disguise.

Flip those pages,unveil those curtains

Keep yourself calm in order to sustain.

I can't do much but i'll try

For all those impediments,i will defy.

I'm spilling my heart out for you

Cause i saw what i needed most in you.

All this time,i never knew what i needed from someone.

Then you came along,i just have to respond.

Missing those smiles,but i understand

There're so many things on your mind to comprehend.

I'm here for you,just so you know

To help you look upon a better tomorrow.

.composed by fee.

le falto

2008-10-04T03:34:00.004+08:00

Only a few hours had gone past,

and i know very well i cannot last.

Is it possible to see your face once more,

Probably then i could endure.

I miss every single bit of you,

I cannot help but to feel blue.

The last time your eyes stares into mine,

Was a moment i could not leave behind.

I need you here and telling me you're okay,

and insyaallah we'll be together,someday

Let's gaze upon the stars in a vast open field,

knowing you has always been a thrill.

Come back home and i'll tell you've been missed,

and how much i need you more than anyone,at least.

Colour me silly cause i'm in love,

If there were stuff that honest and true,it would be what's stated above.

.composed by fee.

i miss you

Simple english

2008-09-29T03:16:00.005+08:00

You don't need me around,tell me it's true

Can't help but to feel blue.

Capture those moments in still picture frames

Everyone knows how i feel,that's what they clam

I guess i have to bee independent,not to count on others

But being alone hands down,really bothers

I need to fine someone who would call me theirs

As far as i'm concern,i'm crashing cars

I want to be yours,you i do

But you're holding something that i can't get through

Couldn't believe that fact that i'm playing martyr

I'm dying for you,would anyone beg to differ?

This past week has been ever so empty

Considering the fact that i'm entering the sate of insanity

All will read this and forget about it in a day

But this f*cking problems won't just go astray

I can't believe it hurts so much

How love could burn with merely a single touch

Glad to see that you're happy

Remove those covers and reveal my darkest anxiety

.composed by fee.

"the preservation of the martyr in me"

Slipknot

problem statements

2008-09-26T00:57:00.003+08:00

Am i a distinct problem to you?

or someone who's damn new?

I feel like i'm not sterling guidance

But more of someone becoming an interference

My qualifications does not exceed your expectations

But qualified to be another of your tribulations.

I am not someone who seeks so much in you

Just being lucidly yourself will do

How am i to you?

I need yo to be honest and true.

I'll yearn for the day you'll mention

Voicing out the answer to my question.

Am i worth your time?

Or just another mountain to climb?

Am i worth talking to?

Or just waiting for me to overdue?

Bring me down honey,till i suffer most from my misery

Whatever happens,i'll die loving you,baby.

.compsed by fee.

When you fall

2008-09-23T01:35:00.005+08:00

When you fall,i'll be there for you

To call my name,i'll proceed to your rescue.

I'll be with you even through the darkest phases of life

Together you and i,we will strive.

Call out my name when you need me the most

Let us share our predicaments and draw ever so close.

Indeed,you are special in many different ways

Ways that are unique,i surely must say.

Close your eyes my dear,let it all go

I'll diminish away your pain that became your deepest sorrows.

I'll hold you in my arms to salvage you from this pain

And to travel together on this rutted terrain.

Watch as the scintillating days go by

And discern the gloaming nights that are bound to oblige.

Lean against me and i'll whisper into your ears

"You're that one person i've been looking for all this years"

Even if you're not mine to call my own

I'll be sitting here on my lust decaying throne.

One day you'll be mine and be happy as you'll ever be

For i will strive and pledge to love you for eternity.

I love you,I miss you,I need you every moment in time

Let's be together and be my partner in crime.

I can't stop thinking about you baby,not event a single second

It's just the sheer fact that i love you much more than the world,i reckon.

.composed by fee.

i'm craving for you.

it hurts more than words

2008-09-22T03:30:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i wonder,

can i be with you?

It's in my head to ponder,

i just want you to be true.

I feel dead,

i feel empty.

After what you've said,

it clearly showed no mercy

I want you,

more than the world.

I truly do,

you,to be my girl

But things happen for a reason,

a reason that shreds me.

It clearly wasn't treason,

but it sure left me in insanity.

What is it that i'm not fit for you,

What is it that i don't possess.

Anything for you,i would do,

Be mine for me to caress.

It's okay if you don't want me,

just tell me straight.

Although you're my entity,

There's nothing that would compensate.

Her smiles and laughter,

rejoiced in my head.

Her presence and composure,

i left many things unsaid.

You don't now how i feel about you,

you don't know what i'm going through.

Couldn't help but to love you,

and believe me it's true.

My last words before i go,

last redemption before i sleep.

Never thought it would fill me with much sorrow,

and how i could actually love you so deep.

This shit doesn't mean to anyone but me.Fuck of if you hate it.Enough shouts and scream,enough pain for today.

So long and good night!

2008-09-21T03:19:00.004+08:00

A decree of life,

set by an unforeseen legislation.

Stab me placidly with a knife,

my life's deceived by my ever changing definitions

This shit is killing me man! Everyone keeps telling me how emo my blog has transformed to.I don't blame guys and gals.There're reasons why this shits happen.I write what i feel like writing.It's my blog and all about me.

I can assure you i'm not turning into someone satanic but just purely hurt by these shitty proceedings.If ther's someone like you out there,it wouldn't be a problem.But the thing is,everyone's made special.Basically,that's what narrows u down.

I can call you everything but not mine.

What makes you special is your presence.

You make time fly in every occurrence.

You fill the moments with those splendid sensations.

Never once have you made me feel indifferent.

Your decision had been decided,

hope you're overflowing with joy.

Lost my entity and hurtfully conceded,

i'm here for all to destroy.

Who am i to you?

what is it that you see in me?

What is it that they can but i can't do?

i'll die thinking about this three

Considering that time was you option,

i was left stranded.

Considering that i was in deception,

lies the truth that i was rejected.

.composed by fee.

Sleepless

2008-09-18T02:04:00.004+08:00

It's hard for me to sleep,

while a single worry still ponders.

How could it cut so deep,

I hope i'll grow stronger...

I can't sleep.That's all i can say.Help me,kill me,save me.No matter how hard i try sleeping,i end up dreaming while still awake.I'm just worried for that someone.In the end,i'll sleep in class and my grades basically reflects accordingly.

My nights are like a covered by a vast area of corn field.It's as if you're lost but you tend to over look what actually lies under your noses.hmmm.I just need comfort.I don't have any siblings to talk to her.Sometimes i just need someone around me,to talk to and have fun times with.That's one reason why i would love to have a girlfriend.But my choices are limited.I'm downright trapped now.

Twitch like a faggot,

worried sick like a lover.

Why am i always dumfounded,

i'm lonely and left to shiver.

My eyes may deceive me but not my heart.It's amazing how a person you fell for can make your heart skip a beat.My life's full of anxiety.there'll be many things in mind that i'll be speculating about.My choices?or is it just the way i am?

I'm bored and i'm fucking lonely.Help me venture out of this perturbing perdition on earth.I want to scream my lungs out.If i have the damn fucking freedom to go out,i'd probably be more fittingly happier.why? Because,i wouldn't be caged up in my room thinking about shits.I would be out n having the time i need to restore my fucking mind.

.Time is of the essence.

I want to break free,

from all this despondency.

I'm stuck deep,internally,

why wouldn't it go astray?

.composed by fee.

2008-09-16T02:00:00.004+08:00

Awesomeness is the word to describe the events,

Although the time could get slightly intense.

But i'm enjoying those moments indefinitely,

Those moments are meant to be remembered constantly.

Easy said,i've been enjoying life lately.So the wheels has come to a point where it's climbing back up.But you'll ever know what will happen next though.Whatever happens i'll just be thankful and appreciative.

Recently i've been listening to certain music that's kind of catchy.Listening to the new Hawthorne Heights album was seriously awesome.Well,i admit,the absence of Casey Calvert is a great lost but nevertheless the band managed to compose an album which is awe-inspiring.

Apart from that i've been listening to From Autumn To Ashes as well and i have to say their cool too.Catchy.Unfortunately,the band had broken up.Sad but true.Just have to stick with what is left by them.

beso del beso del beso!

Ending a day with sheer excitement,

changing my lifestyle with some minor amendments.

Putting aside the worries and sadness,

we should just enjoy life with it's up bringing happiness.

.composed by fee.

Love it Or Leave IT - From Autumn to Ashes

2008-09-14T00:08:00.002+08:00

These are the keys

To a pulse that Ive been monitoring

She loves to dream

But dreamers chase and never obtain

A victory

A vicious hand on a violent streak

Learn to run

I'll never be right for anyone

The more it gets suggested

The more I'm uninterested

Strength for now

Nothing later

Love it or leave it ya

Hated and left it

Trying to outgrow that phase

I'm drifting further away from

My element

These are the keys

To open minds and to empathy

She loves to dream

Its better then her reality

A victory

I'm not as old as I used to be

I will not run

Todays the day

The wheels are back on the motor arcade

The more it gets suggested

The more I'm uninterested

Strength for now

Nothing later

Love it or leave it

Hated and left it

Trying to outgrow that phase

All of my ammunition

Is for the wrong weapon

Ive got the worst intention

And question no question

To keep it on offensive

General admission

For when you feel protected

I'll make you regret it

Love it or leave it

Hated and left it

Trying to outgrow that phase

Love it or leave it

Hated and left it

Trying to outgrow that phase

Just let me

Just let out of this

Thanks Dear

2008-09-12T01:57:00.003+08:00

A night to remember,

a night to cherish.

No need for me to consider,

'cause that memory,i'm sure to reminisce.

Yesterday was a hit! Happy sia.Went out with her and we actually buka on the water breakers.Damn that's new.Bought 2 zinger meals for herself and i.Walked to the breakers and coincidentally hear the azan.For once we weren't rushing to eat.We had a new way of breakfasting and that's all i can say about it.We moved from the breakers to the hut as the breakers were rat infested.Cute rats but the food belongs to us!

We technically caught a movie at the mangrove's tower ad ate more KFC.A magical moment happened and it's still running through my mind.Let's just keep this story short and simple.So it ends here.

Thanks for everything,dear!

Smiles from an angel,

Presence of the sun.

Clash of both worlds,

and emerged as one.

.composed by fee.

What Goes On

2008-09-09T01:58:00.003+08:00

Gotten over my sickness,

but not over basic thoughts.

Fuck,i'm just curious,

about those moments i've fought.

Well,basically i've been busy,apparently.First of all,apologies to my friends who wanted pictures from me.Trust me,im still busy.I hate those nights where my thoughts came by to haunt me.Seriously,it's as if it's a never-ending process.I'm a guy who thinks a lot,that's for sure but the fact is,i'm trying my best to make my life a happier place.Yes,i agree,some things in life aren't meant to be.That's when the time comes for me to realize that i have to accept the facts of life.

We've all been there.Loving someone so much that they still seem distant away from you.Living it is a nghtmare.But having that someone still by your side is a dream worth living.I'm fortunate to be in that situation.I would want things to change but i not God nor will i ever be one.Le's just say that this is a huge impact to my life,altering me gently but obvious to the naked eye.

My friends know how much i fell for this girl.But what am i to do? Everyone chose their path,leaving me clueless of what to do next.I tried my best but time wasn't on my side.I tried my hardest but backfired by me falling hard.Pieces were meant to be picked up and so i did.Kowing that many are still left scattered.Emo? must be in your mind right now but i don't blame you guys and gals.

There's so many things i wish i could do with her but all those seems to be astray from reality.Getting over her is just another nightmare.Been there,done that.All i can do is to spend my precious time with her and constantly putting a smile on her face.I'll be strong if i can but my weakness is love.It kills me.Someone like her in my life would be the best gift in life.Strangely,she keeps appearing in my dreams.Appearing almost every single night.It's safe to say that was the "one".But dreams can lie....

I'm here to interpret my thoughts and feelings.

Those that run around aimlessly in my heart and mind.

I'd show you true love with many new meanings.

But it'll only happen if you were mine.

.composed by fee.

No Position

2008-08-21T02:49:00.002+08:00

As long as she's happy,
i'll be okay.
But you know it ain't easy,
surely someday it will go astray.

Managing my thoughts.Man this ain't easy.Suffering thus far with hills of joy but still heartbroken by the facts upsetting truth.Being happy for her is one thing but the sacrifice made by me fills my heart with immense desolation.My life will never b the same unless i find someone like her.

Well i guess it's time for me to move on.

Now its time for me to go,
far away from my feelings thus far.
Another day which sings with the deepest of sorrows,
this will all heal and remain as scars.

.Composed By Fee.
(Fall Of Dr Charlie)

The Reasons

2008-08-18T02:29:00.003+08:00

Reasons here for me to list down,
reasons why i'm leaving town.
How i wish we could be together,
but the reasons here lies to differ.

The reason why i feel this way is pretty simple n straightforward.I just wish life would just have its way of telling me before hand that i would fall.But that wouldn't be life anymore but merely heaven.I can't get over her even if i tried.She's so simple,professional,matured,cute,hot and literally sweet.

I feel like Spiderman sometimes.Having powers but loses it when he falls deeply in love.Realizing that having someone in heart can either build or kill you.We do crazy stuff for those we love but any recognition will be too much to ask for.I can't survive or probably go nuts without hearing from her for a single day.I'm going under immense pain to realize something i don't want to comprehend.It's just too much.

Maybe i am going crazy.Going crazy over her.Inevitably,i'm living dream that seems so distant and essentially never reachable.I wake up in the morning just to realize that today is yet another yesterday.

The reason why i feel down in the middle of the night is simply because i'm thinking of this.I'm lucky to know you but unfortunate not to have you.Yet i feel blissful every moment i have with her.Don't get me wrong,she's undeniably awe-inspiring.I can say she has a big heart.

I'm ripped,bashed,screwed,miserable, down in the dumps, dejected, low, disheartened, sad, down, glum, despondent.

i love her presence....well that's all that i can afford

Another day ending,
with my unloved soul.
Some say we just have to keep on living,
living life as a troll

i love her to death

Rehabilitate

2008-08-10T23:50:00.004+08:00

Woke up to realize it wasn't a dream,
and to notice that my life wasn't what it seemed.
The feeling of self-hatred rose as time elapsed,
Knowing that i am indefinitely trapped.

I'm lost for word and currently confused.I can't say much yet feeling hurt to the core.Woke up today to realize that part of my life dreams had left me a note.A note that pulled me to my deepest setbacks.How can i possibly pick myself up now? It hurts.It hurts to forget and remember.Where do i stand now? Someone please tell me that die happy.

Friends told me that i'll be okay.How i wish that could be what i hoped for.Friends told me that it'll take time.How i wish that i could be short and sweet.Things turn out totally inverse to what i imagined it to be.Then again,i told myself that THIS is life.Sometimes it fucks you fucking down or it could be the best fucking moments in real time.

I tried doing what i can to regain myself form my recent downfall but failure seems to be at the upper hand.So what's going to happen now? All i know is that i'm currently withdrawn by the dilemma that occurred.Trying to sweep those heart wrenching thoughts off my decaying mind.

The world seems to be an inevitable place for love,
Even if it hurt and burns like freshly dried cloves.
How can i possibly sojourn my interweave thoughts,
Knowing that i can't call any shots.

I guess it's time for me to rise once again,
And to realize every possibility of encountering another pain.
I'm embroiling with what i say with no hurtful intentions,
but saying "i Love You" would just be another intervention.

.Composed By Fee.
"downcast by recent impasse"

حبجرح

Drenched In Sorrow

2008-08-08T01:33:00.003+08:00

The reasons i can't sleep are simple,
I'm thinking about my twisted and hell-burning world.
Knowing that you can't be mine seems to be a torture,
Every second,minute and hour.

I'm currently in my darkest fears,
but hoping to see another day light.
Every night i shed countless tears,
knowing that my life will never be as bright.

Pray and meditate is all i can do,
To put aside the pain that i'm going through.
Kill,execute or even mutilate me if you must,
because i know without you,my time wouldn't last.

Few last words before i go,
or a phrase is all that i can say,
Just so if you want to know,
Your the reason why i'm alive today.

.Composed By Fee.
"i was days to slow"

2008-08-05T00:14:00.002+08:00

Wanting you makes me want to live longer,
Hoping that you feel the same,it makes me wonder...

What can i say about today? seems to be all right but had much to think about.damn! where's my optimism when i need it.I kinda feel more isolated at times now.Wish i could have her by my side.She'd know what i should do.Come to think of it,we have so many things in common actually.So manythings that we can talk about and come up with silly comments about others. really knows how to make me laugh.How can i not miss her.Kangen banget si sama cewek itu.

School was okay but a sudden change of facilitator which made everyone languid to even do simple research.haha.Personally,i have no comments about that because i was one of them too.During 2nd break,Fareez and i went to eat and saw a sight that was so tender to our hearts.A father looking through some toys found at the mini-shops under deck.Most kids won't understand the true intention of a father getting something for them despite the gift being average or high-end.Even a gift worth a few cents can result in having a huge impact to a person's delicate heart.Just that the intentions and message must reach into the receiver's heart.Sweet sweet situation.

You're definitely special to me,
Special enough to make me realize.
Realize about your awesome personality,
and that i escaped death twice. <3

Near Death & Her

2008-08-03T22:21:00.002+08:00

Almost killed myself yesterday,
Almost decapitated today.

Let's begin with the near death experience,not that anyone would care.haha.My family and i went to Courts Mega Store after lunch,damn was it crowded.My sis got what she wanted,my mom got what she wanted,my sis' husband got what he wanted and my dad got what he wanted.That leaves me isolated.Relax,i got a few things in hand but i didn't get my D80 Battery Grip.But hey,that's life.Sometimes you get it but sometimes you don't.You just have to keep on trying.

Here goes the scary bit.I was at the Weights corner where they placed all the heavy dumbbells and fitness machines.I stood on 1 end of the long rod that had 20kg on 1 side and another 20 on the other. it looks something like this. (20kg)----------(20kg) .Get the picture? It was resting on the stand where it was supposed to be.This kid pulled the weight on the left while i was standing a meter away from the weight on the right.When he pulled the weight,the weight on the right pulled the rod down and the left side went up to my side.It made a huge thud when it hit the ground and swung the lighter end straight to my head.I immediately tilled my head away and used my palm to block the "enemy".FUCK that was scary.My palm swelled up like a watermelon and now it's better but kinda stiff.If you people think that i'm making a big fuss,try being in my shoes dammit and i'll tell ya,you won't be to lucky.

Here's to that special someone in my heart.

Life is like a roller coaster,
With it's ups and downs.
Don't let it be a big matter,
Just let it gently bounce.

You know i'm with you,despite the situations.
At least i'm loyal,
With you in my heart,there is no resignation

I'll try to keep you smiling,
in times of happiness and sorrow.
To me you make life worth living,
and i'll try to give you a better tomorrow.

Cheer up my dear,
for this is all a test.
A test to let you ponder,
upon the mistakes that will soon be at rest <3

What are my chances?

2008-08-02T19:31:00.004+08:00

She's like a star...

You know you'll never reach it...

...but you just have to keep on trying...

I don't feel like myself.Haven't been eating nor drinking much.Had a feeling a bad weather's going to come.It did.It swept me of my feet and landed face down.Looks like i have to pick up myself even if it hurts.Can't get her of my mind nor out of my heart.She means more than life itself.

Can i have her? Can i see her? Can i be with her?

What are my chances now? Was it a "no"?
I know i can't possibly change her mind but i can always keep trying with wounds on me that bleeds her name.I'm sorry if i'm emotional today but it's an immense drop.I'm confused and miserable.How i wish i could change her mind, i'll promise to make life worth living for her and always try to make her happy in times of exultant or despondency.I'd try to be the best and wipe away her tears if she were shed tears.I wish i just could change her mind.arrghh!

"please be mine,girl.I swear i want/need you"

There's no strings attached...

But just the one to my heart...

Confirmation Of Love At 1st Sight

2008-08-01T18:59:00.002+08:00

Wassup people.I haven't been updating since a long time.I got many to say but i won't be spillin' all now.Been through some ups and downs but everything seems to be okay.

For the passed few days,i've been thinking about this girl.She has the personality and characteristic that seems to pull me in.I saw her before months back by coincidentally taking the same bus.Can't forget that precisest moment.She's so attractive but i couldn't let my feelings mix in.I had a crush for her.I tried to control due to the fact that i didn't know her.Apart from that, i was hoping that she'd sit next to me but an old man got to the sit 1st.

Another coincidence occurred last week.My friend introduced me to his friend who's COINCIDENTALLY that exact girl that i saw on the bus.Couldn't recall her immediately but moments later my memory knocked on my door.There and then the feeling of "crush" kicked in once again.Seemed to be my chance.

Managed to ask her out on Thursday and that was a hell of a ride.We talk,laughed,giggled,smiled and even commented on on goers.Never had that much fun before,seriously speaking.Her smiles are to die for,her words are to ponder upon and her presence is to be desired by many, especially me.I'll do anything for her, and i mean anything.

And for the record,i managed to ask...=)

COOL FRENCH SONG!

2008-03-23T03:32:00.002+08:00

LISTEN TO THIS FRECH SONG ON MY BLOG.Although i don't understand it much but it has a catchy beat,well to some/most people.I can't say that all of you will like it but try to listen.The chorus is uber cool! haha.

This is how i came across this unique song.I was playing Guitar Hero(GH) with Akem-bobo and we were kinda on a role with the solos.We took a look in the GH store and fortunately came acroos this upbeat music.I was dancing along with the beat of the music n singing the chorus clueless of the word.I don't know why but the song keeps me optimistic.o.O.

Apart from Guitar Hero-ing,my soccer team had a match against a luminous team.Why luminous? Because my friends,their jersey can be seen frm miles away.How disturbing n distracting.I wasn't in the mood for soccer and so i arrived FASHIONABLY late-.- .It was raining cats and dogs but if i'm not wrong,i saw mice too.I came in in the 2nd half of the game and volleyed in a goal during the ??min.Penalty shoot out was the final call as it was a 2-2draw.eventually we won by penalties but there we COUNTLESS misses!...gosh! That's why training is vital

Went to Whitesands afterwards and the only thing white was the faces of people shivering due to the bad weather we all faced.We ate at KFC.UNFORTUNATELY,i was still hungry-.-" .Went home,played GH,ate,played GH and here i am now.

By the way,did i mention that a lightning strucked beside the field while the soccer game was commencing? IT DID AND WE ALL JEOPARDIZED! Fortunately everyone was a-okay

Slash out!

back again

2008-03-20T01:31:00.002+08:00

Well,here i am.It has been long since my last update.Needed to do my personal stuff before i updated again.Many changes and many happenings.Too many to say so i'm clueless on where to begin...hmmmm

I got posted to Diploma in Aerospace Avionics(DAA) in Republic Polytechnic.Yeah i know a large majority of you dislike RP but i dont give a sh*t because i personally believe in RP's way of educating and building up our confidence.If others can make it,why can't i.Besides,i love my course that i'm posted to.I think it's a hot prospect in the future.As long as i'm interested,i'll be able to focusand persue.

Holidays has been awesome.Some ups and downs but hey,thats life.You don't give up on lifemlife gives up on you.Been balancing my time with my gf n crew.This will be the only time that i can relax because once school starts,there'll be hardly any rest.I so love my life!

I went back to PRCS to help out with the NPCC BUT....Mr San seems to have a problem with my hair.COME ON! I'm not in PRCS anymore nor am i wearing the school uniform anymore.I'm an EX-crestian.I just dont have the same enthusiasm as before.

My soccer has been okay so far but disipline seems to be a HUGE problem.We can't bee good without proper training.Well,i believe in training and it seems to be obsilete to them.Drastic improvements has to be made in order to progress.

See ya'll around!

BORED

2007-11-25T17:01:00.000+08:00

I'm bored,i'm bored,I'M BORED.Gimme some ideas wat to do man!.i dont hv a single clue of wat to do.All i cn do is sit & stand.damn la seh!

2007-11-20T17:58:00.000+08:00

Mr Shafie

Ms Junainah

Ms Shim

Happay 5 Friends!

Yo DJ Hit The Beat

Alicia Kok In Red

Daniel In The Middle

Join In The Fun!

Farhan Shah

Spread It Waaaaaaiiiid Open!

Cikgu Hartini

Ygn Blakang Tu Buat Ape?!

Peace Dude & Dudettes!

Hawt?..hohoho!

Grp Pic

Happie Bdae Ms Shim!

Grad Nyte

2007-11-19T15:54:00.000+08:00

Let me see.Hmm.Grad nyte has ended & there goes my sec sch life.I hv finally end my sec sch education with limbo rock.Grad Nytez was enjoyable.My grp smacked the cocktail table which was littered with chips n cups.haha.Ppl dressed up formally.We talk to some teachers who hardly recognise us-.- We then headed up to the hall & listen to the principal's speech."BORING!" the sec 5's sang the sch song damn loud until ppl all arnd turn towards us.haha.played the games like crazy son of a guns n watch ppl sch mates dance their feet off.THEN comes the limbo rock.I was forced up on stage by the crowd which was chanting my name!So i juz went up for them(note:i wasn't feeling well).did the limbo rock like a kid bt managed to pass through the lowest while others didnt.The crowd cheered as if i was tat gd.nasib tak koyak seluar aku.We then BEDAL the foods tat were served.My plate was full n the plastic plates bend too.hahaha.Cikgu Hartini sang a song frm...uhm...yeah so she sang.I heard someone mentioning abt Mr Hartono.WHO THE HELL IS TAT? kelaka uh!..hahaha..Dance was the final event.I was literally pulled away so tat ppl could take pics-.- hayoyo manggo manggo!My grp danced arnd the huge desplay of burning candles hoping tat it wuld rain.AND IT DID!...hahaha..

I Miss You All + The Sch - The Principal.

Especially You.

Gdbye All!

A Bid Farewell

2007-11-06T23:31:00.000+08:00

Well wot cn i say?Sch's out or technically WE'RE out of sch.I'm gona miss the time i had during those moment where i could juz pull off any silly stunts.I still wanna make ppl laugh.PRCS will always b PRCS.jaga baik2 yaw!haha.

I guess many of us would b happie tat we've finally come to our final chapter in our life in sec sch.sad?yes.happie?yes.Bt dont worrie.I'll b heading back 2 sch wen i hv the time yeah.What You Believe,Is What You Will Achieve.

FINALLY,i gt my com back!Rabak sak!hahaha.& i managed 2 install all my programmes back la seh!

Thnx for the time & the food baby!

muackxs!

Taking Care PeePs!

I Won't See You Tonight

2007-09-26T22:14:00.000+08:00

Cry alone, I've gone away No more nights, no more pain I've gone alone, took all my strength But I've made the change, I won't see you tonight
Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood all the ones around me, I cared for and (loved) most of all I loved but I can't see myself that way please don't forget me or cry while I'm away
It all built up, inside of me A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free Don't mourn for me, you're not the one to place the blame As bottles called my name, I won't see you tonight
So far away, I'm gone. Please don't follow me tonight. And while I'm gone, everything will be alright.
No more breath inside Essence left my heart tonight

nth

2007-05-30T22:41:00.000+08:00

i don't know what to do, i dont know what to say.

it hurts me to let go when she looks at me that way.

oh did she see, what she's doing to me?

i thought that she was mine, i guess i was wrong.

it seems she's changed her mind, looks like she's moved along
oh,did she see....wats she's doin' to me?

couldn't understand what she was trying to say, i finally figured out that i was in her way, now i'm okay she wasn't too down with rock and roll scene, she wasn't too down with the pain that it brings, oh yeah. she sprouted wings and flew away.

(everything abt now)

2007-05-23T21:23:00.000+08:00

School has been great so far.Haha.'O' level MT is next wk...haiz...looking foward to tat....NT.Bt Nevertherless i'll try my best as usual.N i hv practical tml.DAMN.oh well.I gt nth much to write 4 tonight so i'll leave u all here..hehe

Oral

2007-04-16T19:12:00.000+08:00

Wat the hell! haha.Our class didnt noe anything abt the prelim oral which was 2DAE!!!damn!haiz.I don't raelly noe how i fair in the oral.I juz went nuts when i gt 2 noe tat there was oral.hmm.Tml Passing Out Parade(again).i wana go bt i dunt wanna go(contradict).haha.i juz love NPCC.+ I would love 2 come back again tooz.

Well,i ran out of eye-deers.If i'm in a gd mood,i'll update 2 night.woohoo!

LurbLurbLurb

Taking Its Toll

2007-02-20T23:21:00.000+08:00

Well...It'll b in another few hrs time b4 Man Utd will play against Lille.For sure Man Utd will win.2-1.Tat will be the final score.Nth much 2write tho.I hvnt really done my hw.MAN!!!Spontanious,wk assmt,News 5 & tis advertisement ting.haha.owh well.Better get starting soon b4 the match starts.

The new com hs been great.I love the speed of it.Damn fast.For those com expert & lovers,3.43Ghz isn't much bt it sure is 2 me.Window Vista is the new imports bt now isn't the best time 2 by bcoz of the compatiblity with many softwares such as Itunes n many GAMES.wat a turn-off 4game fanatics.Wait 4 a little while longer n the games will be compatible.We're in a new generation of window vista.Windows 95 is no longer in sight.lets welcome the new WINDOW VISTA!!!!

Btw feel free 2ask me abt Window Vista(msn)

Byez!

Finally

2007-02-19T17:55:00.000+08:00

AH!!!!!It's been ages tat i updated my blog.Suddenly I feel the erge to.Well,life's been gd as always."Amin".I've still been practicing my guitar since back then bt i hvnt gotten any better.May-b a little i surpose.My com imported a virus which sticks to the com although REBOOTING is carried out.N i mean reboot to its freshest state.last yr in sch.When i look at the stars above,i which tat life could go asa smooth as perfect.However,life has otdown-sides.Don't get me wrong or anything.I do love my life no matter wat happens.Bt it's only human to wish for sth more.I do appreciate my life thnk you.

Sch has always been like its usual.Optimism has always been my game bt sometimes i do admit defeat.I do lose at some point bt that is where i get up on my precious feet n continue my journey & learn frm my occuring mistakes.Everyone should n should nt look only to the negetive aspects of life.Life's heading in 1 direction,mind u.Don't b oblivious with the sourroundings cos SOME of ur friends will help u n tat is wat i call a true friend(one tat sees &the one tat reacts)

Well,i hope u like the music.It's frm Avenged Sevenfold called M.I.A .So make the most out of ur life tat God has given u & do be thankful of wat u hv n get.

.TC.

2006-12-13T21:07:00.000+08:00

i'm like so tired now.my body is aching badly bt the feeling is gd.the 'N'lvl results will b released nxt wk bt then again,i feel so scared of the results.Insya-Allah everything will go well.i hope we all make it 2 sec5.i duno wat 2 do 2 fill up my time at home.i juz feel like doing sth bt i duno wat 2do.haha.bt at tis state,i'd rather reconsider all tat.i've stil been practising my guitar bt i'm like running out of ideas on wat 2 play nxt.i wanna join guitar classestat will guarenteed satisfaction.bt i juz dun wanna increase the burden of my parents.i'll juz stay this way fer now.tats all peeps.i HOPE i'll update soon...hahaha

2006-06-25T15:38:00.000+08:00

Banyak banget hw ya?Haiz...Well we've gt 2 finish it whether you like it or nt.Rush all the way.I've cut my hair n the person cut my fringe also=( Well,the fringe was out of shape coz it's nt the same length.I wont b cuting 4 a long tyme i tink.The next tyme i cut will b a layer by layer.Tat will look nice With long fringe.WooHoo!!!.Haha.

I'll update later in the night coz now i gtta do my hw.Insya-allah habis jgk nanti ya.

Permisi ya semua

CHAOZ!!!

2006-06-11T21:53:00.000+08:00

Prediction on the Netherland match against Serberia & Montenegro is tat Netherlang is gonna win 3 goals to 1.ONWARD Netherland!!!!

WORLD CUP!!!

2006-06-09T20:31:00.000+08:00

It's finally here ladeez n gents.A prediction abt the match of Germany & Costa Rica Is tat Germany is gonna win 2goals to 1.Watch as the home team wins the opening game of the 2006 FIFA World Cup!

2006-06-08T12:49:00.000+08:00

I played soccer yesterdae.Bole tahan jgk ya.I was reluctant 2 come actually bt then my team mates told me tat he ain't coming.WooHoo!!!Way to go!hehe.I had a better time thinking abt soccer then thinking abt him coming.RELIEF!

Raining.Bt there will b a match on Saturday.Looking 4ward 2it.I've been busy with my laptop n less time on the net,surfing away.I juz nd it 2 be suitable 4 my liking.hmmmz.Dis Fridae is a 4 YEAR THINGY.The World Cup is begining again 2 unfold a new story.Wahaha.Germany vs Costa Rica.Germany r bound 2 win bt don't under estimate the underdogs.hehe.They might giv us a shock of a lifetime.

I hv 2 cut down on my busy stuff to update.

Later

(".)

Kryptonite

2006-06-07T15:40:00.000+08:00

I took a walk around the world To ease my troubled mindI left my body laying somewhereIn the sands of timeBut I watched the world float To the dark side of the moonI feel there is nothing I can do, yeahI watched the world float To the dark side of the moonAfter all I knew it had to be Something to do with youI really don’t mind what happens now and thenAs long as you’ll be my friend at the endIf I go crazy then will you stillCall me SupermanIf I’m alive and well, will you beThere a-holding my handI’ll keep you by my side With my superhuman mightKryptoniteYou called me strong, you called me weak,But still your secrets I will keepYou took for granted all the times I never let you downYou stumbled in and bumped your head, If not for me then you'd be deadI picked you up and put you backOn solid groundIf I go crazy then will you stillCall me SupermanIf I’m alive and well, Will you be there a-holding my handI’ll keep you by my side With my superhuman mightKryptoniteYeah!!If I go crazy then will you stillCall me SupermanIf I’m alive and well, will you be thereHolding my handI’ll keep you by my side With my superhuman mightKryptoniteIf I go crazy then will you stillCall me SupermanIf I'm alive and well, Will you be there a-holding my handI'll keep you by my side With my superhuman mightKryptoniteYeah!!

last straw?

2006-05-15T15:24:00.000+08:00

4.06pm:Well looks like many ppl r enjoying themselves out there.To all:Hav Fun & Take Care.I'm alone at hm juz waiting 4sth wonderful 2 happen.Hu the Hell care seh.haha.I'm hating my life every single wk.Cn i hate myself?Tats wat i'm doing now.Juz being me isn't fun.How patient i m,i do nt noe.Bt cn i say tat if i were 2 b un-patient,ppl r gonna regret?...hmmz...Well i'm changing 2b un-patient.My patience 4 evryting i do is running out quick.Juz considering 2b "burning" my soul away.Juz waiting 4 time 2 pass.Where do i go frm here?Will i b away frm here?Or will i juz stand,being patient,shiver everydae n play a sudden deathmatch.Will tat b cool?I'm wasting my time away doing NTH.I wanna vommit..woargh!I might as well migrate n live somewhere more social.i hv no more qns in my mind.M i hu i m?Will i b hu i will b?Wat do ppl see in my eyes?..Vengeance?Hatred?Despire?sorrow?Or mth at all.Many said i've changed.Is it true?..I wanna talk bt i cnt possibly as qns all the tyme.I'm running out of qns.Only a few ppl cn make me happie.To solve tis,i cn become nocturnal.Tat way i cn do anyting at night n juz slp through during the unbareable daez.Pain will often come 2 me,damaged bt by sorrow in my blood.Dark & Cold.

Wat's happening 2me?!sth i guess.Bueno Girar Malo & Propio Maligno Su Ello Mejor.Felicidad, Nunca La Resultado.Wat does it mean?Go figure...I'm living my life once n tats all i want.So i go out when i want to n when i feel like it.I'm tired of being available here n there.4now,i really really REALLY wanna go out 2 catch a movie or sth.Someting fun will b Great!I'm tired sittin' in tis chair.Must get a new 1 like the ones in the office.Woohooo.Bt nth is gonna change me frm being optimistic.I'll still b tat.No doubt abt tat.Now there's No more 4-4-2 or 5-3-2.It's all

1-1-8.No patience,all attack.The chances of me saying "relax" or "sabar" is 1:9. The chancec of me saying "let me think" or "Hmmz?" will be the same.bt the chances of me saying "Go ahead" or "ape2 la" will b 4:1.Cool ryte?.

I wanted 2go biking bt seems like things changed.I've decided 2stay hm n "lepak".MENDAK!!!!Hahaha.Owh well.I'm restless man! Wat happen 2my saturdae n sundae?mondae's coming,the dae i hate..Seatin' on the bed alone,staring at the fone.....Blablabla.hehez.

7.22pm:Well,tat was a few hrs ago.Now is Now.Most ppl hu noes me well would Noe tat i'll b optimistic.Typical me.I'll smile like usual when nth on my mind.Don't make me sad ok ppl.thnx.hahaha.lol.Nxt song i'm gonna learn is Hotel California.i've been there bt i didn't go 2the hotel.haha.See i'm laughing-.-...

Up Comings

2006-05-09T19:56:00.000+08:00

I'm juz left with 1more ppr tml n THAT'S IT!...Yeah...My band n i arranged 2hv a jamming session tml at abt 3.30 tml.Most probably abt 2hrs of non-stop jamming.haha.Pretty restless at hm.Cn i go somewhere where something will happen n that someting cn make me smile(at least).Argh.bored bored bored!!!I wanna go out bt with whom?n where?....

Thursdae,holidae.Wanna do wat?.Fridae,holidae.Wanna do wat.Saturdae,holidae.Wanna do wat?.Sundae,holidae.Wanna do wat?.Mondae,holidae.WANNA DO WAAAT???!!!For all i noe,i'll kill myself with my guitar.hah.For all i noe,i'll lose my patience.Juz eager 2do sth.Or betta yet,i'll hibernate 4 5daez n nt touching a single electronical device.

"He who mahes a beast out of himself,gets rid of pain of being a man"

"Sorrow,sings deep inside my blood.

All the one's around me,i care for in life.

I loved,but i can't see myself that way.

Please don't forget me or cry when i'm away..."

A7X

!!!Bye!!!

time again

2006-03-03T20:58:00.000+08:00

The wk juz flew past...i felt as if i missed out something...something juz didnt fit...Apart frm tis, i missed some special words bt i'm nt demanding 4 any.At some point of my life,i juz felt like dying bt there's some1 hu i love so much tat juz pick up the pieces.it seems 2 me tat it's falling apart again.Cn i do tis on my own?or m i gonna fall juz like i did juz now?i dont mind putting my life on the line 4her.I guess i'm juz loosing it.My parents wont understand my position nor my craving.

Everyting juz lies in my shivering hands......Ok i'm havin' a major prob here.Enuf is Enuf

Bubye

Franz Ferdinands

2006-02-09T22:16:00.000+08:00

ROCK ON!!!!

thigh probs

2006-02-06T21:12:00.000+08:00

Well,i went 2the doctor juz now n boi was it great!...The company was superb.Fun indeed.HOWEVER i've been x-cused frm Physical training 4 2weeks!wats up with tat?!it means my biking,running,swimming etc.While most ppl would like an x-cuse frm P.T.I on the other hand,reframe myself frm it.

I LoveYou!

!chaoz!

Happie Chinese New Yr

2006-02-01T22:51:00.000+08:00

Nt 4geting my Chinese fwens,I would like 2 wish ALL my Chinese Fwens a Happie Chinese New Yr!!!...Hopefully y'all gonna get gd fortune=)

4the muslims,its another yr 4us(1427)

*COOL*

I'm outta here!!!

x=Chaoz=x

HEYK HEYK

2006-01-25T21:58:00.000+08:00

Scene:Pacific mall

Russell:Hey,how much is that purse ?
Seller:Therty-five dowllar
Russell:Nah..Wat abt thirty?
Seller:NOOOO...NOO
Seller:I can't do therty...If i giv youw therty,2daey youw come tml youw come i close down
........skipped scene.......
Seller:Youw sim laik nice guy...I giv u BEST price...Therty-fouw fifty
Russell:That's like 50cents less man!
Seller:fifty cent alot of money..Youw save fifty cent here ten youw go somewhere ewse(else) youw save another fifty cent,yuow got one dowllar...Ten youw take youwr dowller n go 2 te dowller store n u buy someting ewse(else)
Russell:That's it! i'm outta here!
Seller:HEYK be a man!...be a man do te wryte ting!!!
Seller:Maybe youw don't buy te purse now youw walk around n see someting ewse n ten u come back n say "HEY!,i want 2buy te purse 4 therty-fouw fifty" I say "NO!...youw can't get te purse 4 therty-fouw fifty..maybe te price go up 2 fouwty dowllers"

BE A MAN!!!

Russell Peters

2006-01-22T20:33:00.000+08:00

HaHa...WoW.I like Russell Peters.He really noes how 2 make me laugh.He put his hilarious jokes in a way that makes ppl laugh.He even acted out.How cool is that ?!i advise ppl hu loves laughing 2 check it out. www.youtube.com .Type in Russell Peters.Make sure u watch the 45min length show.Wait 4 it 2 fully buffer 1st b4 u watch it.

2dae i went riding with my custom BMX bike.Its the coolest bike i've gt.Nt 2 mention the GT-Aggressor & my Wheeler- CX-4000.All custom.Muahaha!!!Enough abt moutain bikes.My BMX is pink in colour.COOL!!!i hav modified it 2 abt 90%.I'm left with the bracket which is near the crank.Soon i'll b changing it.I just changed the front rim.Cost me a lot!.I love the Odessy fork,Lizard Skin hand grips,Maxxis M-Threat tyres,Velro Carbon-fibre seat,DK crank,Haro Slim Bar,Promax brake system,Haro Head-Set,GT fork bolts,Go Big inch-thick rims n the Schwinn BMX frame.All in all,it cost abt$1000+.Bt the the market value now is abt $700.

NO PAIN,NO GAIN
SCHWINN REEPER
CHAOZ!

songs n rifle

2006-01-07T21:43:00.001+08:00

I modified a great song 4her.Well,i love it bt i don't noe abt her.It means so much 2 me bt wat abt her.Nice tune though.I injured my back,head,ankle n fore arm.Haha.All thnx 2my PDS rifle

cute

ChAoZ!!!

PDS Squad

2005-11-10T19:50:00.000+08:00

The PDS Squad is improving wonderfully.Frm scrap 2 a new generation of NPCC's PDS Squad.Progress along the way 2 a gold unit.I maintain the reputation of NP.I even help won the Drill Competition frm a runner-up 2 Overall champs.N even won the 3rd consecutive win 4 PDS.How happi we were back in those daes.Now here we r passing time n soon,we'll pass it down 2 the new generations.I'm gonna miss NPCC.

My niece kept on cryin' n cryin' this early evening.I hav 2 say that she's irritating if she crys.Bt very adorable wen she sings n dance.haha.She stopped crying wen i carried her.Haha.

I heard that u have a headache.Take a gd rest ayte.Gd luck 4 ur competition tml.Wat ever happens,i will be supporting u throughout the whole competition frm sch.No doubt abt that.2bad i'm stuck in sch.Once again,Best Of Luck Yeah.

YEAH YEAH

Heee....Hooo....tit te ne tit

=CHAOZ=

The End Of P.R

2005-11-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

At last i finished my physical recreation.My last session was yesterdae.Wasn't as exciting though bt he force me 2 finish it.hahkx.Well,if it's 4 the good,y not.Yes it was tiring bt all of that paids of ryte.Most of us have finished the physical recreation bt some have not.I'm willing 2 play soccer with them if She plays.Anyways,after the session,i had the usual muscule aches.i'm used 2 it.Bt the back muscles hurt so bad.

3 periods of math we had 2dae.1h felt like 2h.phew...Glad thats over.haha.We even had a "fill in the blanks" geog test.Was it easy?Was it hard?I don't noe.Haha.After sch,Ridwan n me played "Killzone".We palyed more than an hour b4 he went hm.

I hope that u'll heal as soon as possible.Don't push urself tau.Take care kayz.

Chaoz

NEW.....

2005-09-22T17:27:00.000+08:00

Yo yo!!!.....wats up?i'm new 2this blogging thing n trying 2 get use 2it.I dont really noe much abt this thing.Wanna noe my dae?.....well 2dae was a simple n great dae.My fren,Ridwan,was raelly pissed off with me.Haha.I told him that the "girl" that he u sually disturbs wants 2meet him.U all should hav seen his reactions.I was soo Hilarious.Hahaha.Then at the end of the dae,i told him that it was juz a joke.His face filled with relief.

Earlier in the morning,Mr Razak cut my hair.haiz......Its not that he wanted 2giv a warnig.Strat away asked 2go 2the office.but it was KINDA fun.hahaha.dont try though.Now my hair looks wierd.Wat 2do now?cant change the past....Gotta live with it...life goez on

well...no1 noes me blog website yet.Takes time.Those who noes abt,pls do me a favor n pass it on kays.......

This is to a special girl:Zai Wo Sing Li
thnx 4helping me...(u noe hu u r)

byez!!!